I'm bp2 so most of my hypo episodes are just me being super productive and chipper and energetic. But the first episode I had that scared me, like I was out of control... I was in my dorm room and I had so much energy I didn't know what to do. I tried to calm down -- reading, playing cards with my roommate -- but nothing helped, I couldn't focus. I asked my roommate if she wanted to go on a drive with me because I couldn't think of anything else to do. But I drove so fast and so recklessly that she got scared and made me take her home. So I did but then I drove off and drove extremely fast some more (this is the middle of the night btw). Then I chain smoked cigs (I had never smoked before but bought them on impulse) until I fell asleep in my car in an alley. I had never felt that out of control before.
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