ive enjoyed these past few days of thinking about Spirit, feeling It, recognizing how needed Spirit is in my soul everyday, all day...

recogizing the different planes i can find Spirit on... in this life and beyond it...

how, without Spirit, I'd have very little strength or hope...

how with Spirit, all things imagineable seem possible to me...

the immananent God for me is One who can hear me daily, who ministers to me in real life, in the form of other people, in the form of things that happen to me day to day... on this Earth plane...

i can apply the logic that everything happens for a reason when i think in this way... even the horrbile that is so hard to endure is the Will of God Spirit, intended to guide us closer to Spirit to find healing...

it is confusing at times to think of all that must occur for humans to find this source of strength, when it is so much easier to blame and hate God sometimes... i have to look deeper into it to find the healing that's there if i will only look and try to undertand...

lessons learned and time consumed... ive wondered why we must live life backwards... learning after we've make wrecks of ourselves and our place...

ive heard that babies are born with Spirit conciousness, but by the time they can speak, wordly indoctrination has begun and the Spirit is pushed into the background...

ive often felt that technology and 'advances' have only made things harder.. that every solution breeds new problems in a never-ending cycle..

its made me want to stop progress and go back, to when it was simpler...

its made me analyze what the difference is between needs and wants...

i simplified... not as simple yet as i want to train myself, but you wont find me keeping up with the Jones's

thoughout this discussion ive struggled to avoid 'preaching' but it is hard in a conversation like this not to let your opinions air at least once in awhile...

i really just wish we, as humans, could rise above this mess we're in and look DOWN upoon it for a change, rather than feeling its burden upon us...

if we could examine and analyze all the social factors that contribute to world depression .... if we could as a group, as a whole, find the understanding that is there for us to grab onto...

but we are drowned and finding the way is so hard when we are tired and ill...

but the answers are there for us all to see...

as a people we have all been oppressed... its not always something wrong with our minds... sometimes it is, but sometimes, its just because we're oppressed (and thus depressed) and we arent organized enough to find our way towards the light...

for me, God has been the light... and now, in this physical place, i pray to the immanant God because i'm told it is that Spirit which is here in this realm im in now...

i want to aspire... i want to pull myself up... i need help, i need strength, i need hope... God gives me that...

and i need other humans too... those whove gone where im headed... those who know the way out... cause there IS a way out...

Immanant God is there to help me...