Hey Emptynightmare. I'm so sorry you're going through this right now. I'm not sure what happened but it sounds like you were hurt by the end of a relationship and I can completely relate. And, men ARE scary. I was talking to my good friend the other day and she is a lesbian. She said "I feel sorry for all you straight women because you have to be attracted to men!" (no offense to anybody here) I really want you to know though, that it makes sense to be completely and utterly depressed after the ending of a relationship. We are here for you. When I am at my most depressed, I have those exact same thoughts you are talking about ("nobody cares about me"). Don't believe it. Depression lies.