I’m sorry I think relationship was a misleading word. It was more like a friendship. And things were great but I ended it because I’m stupid and screwed up. Just wanted to clear that up. That’s all I’m going to say about that friendship here, I just didn’t feel right about the nature of it being misunderstood.

I am terrified of men and am sexually damaged but that doesn’t have anything to do with my friendship.

Even on a fundamental, platonic level, I’m confused and messed up.

Thank you to everyone for responding. I will try to keep your thoughts with me as I go about my day.

I just feel unwell because of both the end of the friendship but also other things that have been going on more severely and for longer than I care to admit.