Things are not great. We still love each other and co-parent well, but the romance is gone and she isn't interested in trying to bring it back. She blames me for denial of dx that lead to me having a lot of swings that weren't treated properly, hiding drinking and lying about it. I did those things. I wish she would either forgive me and try to reignite the spark or kick me to the curb. This half measure really gets to me at times. Through most of the daily routine it's okay, but when we head to our separate rooms at night I don't think happy thoughts.