My internet is being really slow right now and the song wouldnt load so i will check it in the morning

But i know that to be true, that i am fearful, i fight it everyday and try hard at everything...

I talked briefly to the ex therapist about stockholm syndrome because i thought i had something similar...

I dont know what my problem is, my siblings arent as messed up as i am ..

I was sexually abused though... atleast i think it was abuse..
It ****ed my head up... but i try not to defend them..

And i have almost died a few times in traumatic situations...

My childhood was ****ed...

Fell in love only to be manipulated and emotionally abused... over long distance so it was easy for her

And now im just broken all apart and confused trying to make a life out of this messed