Today I saw a new pdoc. She was quite nice, and actually talked about things related to mental illness, like asked questions about my mood and such, unlike my last pdoc, so I liked her much better. The only thing about what she said was wrong about not being able to have social anxiety and ASD at the same time, which you can, but I didn't correct her, as I'm told that's not polite and that it doesn't really matter in the end.

But anyways, when I asked what my diagnosis were/are, she actually told me, which I was happy about, as people expect me to read between the lines, which I don't like 80% of the time.

Anyways, I'm told I have recurrent MDD... I'm happy to know this by an official person. I didn't realize the recurrent part, but it makes sense. I'm not happy about the fact that I have a 90% of having another episode after this one apparently, because this is my third episode, maybe more, I'm not too sure.

I really needed closure for myself; that I'm not faking things and that there is something wrong with my brain that is making me this way, and not something else. Closure feels good.