when I was at the high point in my practice... I broke down....most of my patients were not on drugs and I didn't care about diagnosis...I broke and it was terrible...I couldn't do much...I just cried and stayed in bed a lot...I don't know what happened..

that keeps coming back at certain times like right now...one of my friends was not being respectful...I felt he was trying to take me down in a power trip...I got very angry...today I have returned to thinking about my bad breakdown...I still feel responsible for stopping work and taking disability...I feel guilty...

today I feel like a failure...I have failed in my life...I have just floundered...