omg perna...really? that's awesome. i now have a new respect for you. You'd be my hero if you beaned her/him in the forehead.

i don't think my T is used to having a client flip him off. In fact, i am betting right now he does not have many clients that see him long term like me. Insurance and crap. About 50% of his practice is pain management.. i am pretty certain i am kinda different for him. He is generally cautious with me for this very reason. i am a high flight risk.

Thank you sky... i have to make choices when i feel poorly because that has been my life for a long time. i'd never do anything if i waited for the misery to lift. i don't know how much people realize how much pressure i have been living with... a train wreck... even T said so. It makes me vulnerable to raging differences in mood and temperment. i try so hard but it's exhausting. That's why i am fed up with T.. he should not have pulled this crap on me now.

He doesn't like the word "fault" but on the phone he said his choice was a mistake. and i know everyone can make mistakes

i just dont know what to think.