VO......

I remember all too well the kind of situation you're in. Uni (what we called College) does feel like one big long competition, I remember it well.

I am certain it was in College that I hammered out a new sort of platform for myself. I had to stop caring what "everyone else" thought, and forge on ahead with my own priorities, because I was working and putting myself through school---and what passed for "normal" then was for most students to behave in ways I never would have dreamed of, even in my most hedonistic fantasies.

You may very well be operating on a different plane than your peers. Try and focus on the opportunities that are right there in front of you. It only comes along once in life (no matter what people say about going back to college when you're older...), and because of our physiology, one never really has the kind of energy or brain power you now enjoy at your age, ever again. Seize this time back for yourself.

Love, attraction---they follow such arbitrary lines. It will come! Believe me, it will come.
Please don't dwell on people who are not worthy of you, who do not see your character and smarts.

A good thing to do might be to make a list of what you'd like to achieve before your secondary education is finished. Please include a short list of your strengths, and how they will help you get there! (And then make a list of where you want to be, say, 3, 5, 10 years from now.) This will help ground you, and help keep you focused on what your priorities should be.

Your therapist has perhaps used some unfortunate words. But you must be smart enough to work around them. I'm certain they never meant to wound you or harm you. They were perhaps badly-timed, but their job really is to help you.

Many hugs, and a confidence-building smile for you.