So is this possibly psychosis? I find myself more and more paranoid about the human race in general. Like i am totally apart from it. Somehow they would do everything in their power to make sure my worst nightmares come true. When someone does something that doesnt work out well for me i automatically assume they are trying to get me put away. The closer the person is to me the more paranoid i get. Sometimes i even worry that the people in chat are all my mental health people hiding out as normal people so they can spy on me.

Sometimes i hear a voice but its almost always when my head confuses other noise and i somehow translate it into coherent words. They dont just start holding conversations with me or anything. I spend a lot of time arguing in my head about things which i assume im arguing with my conscience but when i really get confused my conscience takes on three or four different, i guess the word would be voices, but i dont hear them except in my head. Where the ones i need to translate are definately heard.

I think the most annoying part is the feeling different part. Im afraid of acting "crazy" around people as ive already spent too much time in hospitals. Im noticing that im way different from most people in too many ways. Like somehow im a left over of a different species. Im also pretty sure people lie to me for their own agendas or more likely to gain my trust. Its hard to break someone if they dont trust you after all.

Guess im just curious how normal this is or if it does sound like psychosis.