My T called me this morning (because I called her last night). She told me to focus on my definition of love and not the word. She told me to remember that she does feel the same as I do: cares about me and is willing to make sacrifices. So I guess she does love me, but doesn't use the word? About being embarrassed: she told me she's known about my feelings for a long time now, so I shouldn't be anymore embarrassed by them then I was. She said everything is okay, she's not mad, and she's not going to leave me.