holy cow! No one is at all attacking you or your creative spirit!

You suggested you were feeling overwhelmed to a breaking point. Myself and others simply suggested that either a break or redirection were in order. This doesn't mean a decision of permanence. Yes, I think perhaps you need to put down the violin for a bit but you can still 'exercise' your artistic muscle with other temporary pursuits. Indeed, exploring other artistic media often adds inspiration to our primary practise. See and create beauty elsewhere and bring back and incorporate that experience into your music.