Thank you for your replies, understanding and suggestions!

My appointment times are all in the evening and I’m very thankful that they are. I can’t imagine having to snap back to reality so quickly. You guys are very strong and grounded to be able to do that.

It usually feels like I’m not all “me” on my way to his office, and depending on what we talk about, I’m at varying levels of “me-ness” when I leave his office. The drive home is usually in auto mode.

There is an area that he has offered for me to sit and collect myself, but for some reason it never really feels like an option to me. I guess auto mode turns on when my time is up and I just do the normal thing.

I do have things going through my mind on the drive home, but they are distant and I’m not really working through them. It’s just there until I can get home and write in my journal.

There isn’t really anywhere to stop on the way home that I would feel safe and calm. It’s dark and cold here now when I’m headed home.

A coffee shop sounds very inviting, but it doesn’t feel like I could really relax there and journal. There are some nights here at home that I’m journaling and don’t realize what time it is. I think that is loosing time. Maybe? That makes me feel cautious about journaling openly and unedited anywhere but at home.

If it wasn’t so late in the evening the gym does sound like a great idea.

I guess my main desire is to get home and have the space to put in my journal, what’s going on inside of me.

Maybe if I can just decide that when I get home, it will be after I take care of what everybody needs, then I can have the time to listen.

I just get kind of weird about my space when I’m tryin to get everybody settled. It feels like I’m being crowded.

Thanks again for the replies. I appreciate you!