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Old Nov 21, 2017, 07:42 PM
piano97 piano97 is offline
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Not good today. Very depressed and empty. Slept 3 hours daytime and feel disconnected and zombie. Time moving weird. Bad anxiety yesterday but I worked through it, made myself do errands twice. I think I was OK last night, which seems very very long ago. I don't know how to explain the time distortion stuff, I get this when depressed. I feel like no one understands at all today. I had been doing fairly OK since a med change a couple weeks ago. Family stuff and holiday I don't know wha to do. I don't drive well anymore as far as highways/interstates. My sister said would pick me up thursday and she changed her plans now. My dad said I could do t-give with his family, but that he didn't know if he could pick me up (2 hours away). I don't want to do any of it. I just feel low and empty and that's it's painful to be awake. Cycling is the most awful thing I know of. I guess good news is it will pass, but it may just pop me back up too high then crash again. I'm sick of meds and feel like they are total BS today. I know I can't go off them either. And why? Will it make me very sick, or from discontinuation syndrome. Everything just feels and seems awful today. I know this is cognitive distortion but I feel very trapped in it at the moment.
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