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Originally Posted by DP_2017
I've been feeling very depressed and even had thoughts of wishing I would die, although I'd never do anything, because I couldn't do that to my dog. I've been struggling with a lot of feelings for my T and its contributing to my mindset.
Anyway, I got and was so quiet today, he asked a few things and I answered and that was that. I kept all the pain in but I trust him more than anyone, now I am angry with myself I have to sit on this all again another week and hope that I am brave enough to speak up then. I don't get what came over me, why I just shut down when I was waiting days to talk to him.... sigh....
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Sorry DP, that has happened to me a few times and it's a really horrible feeling! I get so mad at myself when I feel like I waste a session. I'm finding that if I'm having trouble with a subject and just cant get the words out that if I type them in my phone and hand the phone over for my T to read, that helps to get the conversation started.
Other than that I don't have any other advice, but wanted to let you know that I feel you and support you.