I get very upset watching rape scenes in movies and TV shows (no Game of Thrones for this girl!) to the point where it feels like I'm about to have a heart attack. Not sure why. I may have been sexually abused as a small child and repressed the memory - that's the only explanation I can come up with for why rape scenes trigger me so badly. But anyway. I forced myself to watch the remake of "The Last House on the Left" a few years ago. It was excruciating, but I wanted to prove to myself that I was emotionally strong enough to withstand it. Just out of curiosity, I went back again recently and watched only that particular scene several more times. While it never stopped being upsetting, per se, I did find that significant desensitization had occurred because I knew what was coming. I still avoid movies and shows with rape scenes because they stir up all kinds of awful emotions but feel comforted knowing that I'm at least receptive to the exposure approach (which bodes well for me in therapy trying to cope with the other traumas in my life).
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