I've been having flashbacks to possible/likely childhood abuse. Sometimes it's only words, sometimes only an emotion. Today it was an image. There were body sensations too, but I'm just gonna focus on the image here. (I am seeing a T who has generally confirmed what is going on and has brought up "trauma", but prior to this I had complete amnesia of everything.)
In the image/memory something is happening to a young girl (who I think is/was me as a child). I am confused though, b/c the image/memory is from the perspective of an outside observer...
Right now as an adult I only dissociate in mild ways, never feeling completely "out of body." So my question is mostly to those who are more aware of having felt completely outside their own bodies... do you ever have flashbacks where you are watching a scene and you can see the entire scene, including all of your own body, like even the top of your own head (which is technically impossible... no one can actually see their own head without looking in a mirror...).
I also posted this on the dissociation thread; hopefully that's ok.
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