I'm sorry if I worried you. I'm trying. Things in the loneliness department are a teeny tiny bit better. I got out yesterday (Tues)
I finally got some ingredients I've been needing. I love to bake.... something I haven't done since she died.....
But I'm hoping to get back into the swing of things. Seeing as how she died on the 13th of December, kinda close to Christmas it's getting harder as the days go by.
I wish upon all wishes just to hear her voice again or hear her laugh........I just can't remember what those sound like.....and it's eating me up. That, the loneliness, solitude, the PAIN(sorry to complain about it all so much!)etc.
But I'm desperately clawing and grabbing at any little moment, no matter how brief or long, of...idk... happiness??...I'm honestly not sure what happiness is any more so....

Thanks with all of my heart for caring. REALLY. I'm a complete stranger, but knowing ppl care helps alot. So thanks again.