My boyfriend and I got engaged and I was really happy about it, I was sure he is the one I love and also we are such a good friends.
One day he said that he find conversation in my computer which was deleted and old and started to blame me. It was when I wasnt near him and my world crushed in pieces, I was shocked about fact he stalks me, I though its over with us but I loved him. He felt guilty and started to see T and take medication. I forgave because he was honest but after this he used to ask me questions about my past and I lost my trust in him. Sometimes I thought about self harm or almost did it, I started to cry everyday and felt completely unhappy. I couldnt get over it but he said he is guilty and will never do it.
I started to think about buying new computer what I didnt do yet and when it seemed that its okay and all what happened was just a horrible nightmare which is gone and I felt happy with him again, then started questions about my fb, i deleted my account.
His behaviour kills me and now I cant feel anything at all. I dont know what to think, Im so tired of this life, I ask myself did love turn to pain? And is there love?
I feel broken but maybe Im too emotional and its nothing but for me its tragedy. Im sure Im not the only one who was stalked or stalked someone.
Maybe I should simply wait but my mother says that its emotional abuse.
Share your experience about stalking or being stalked and how it ended.

I cant be sure he is not reading this. If yes please kill me.