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Originally Posted by Heir2theThorn
I am in a process of recovering some memories of possible childhood abuse. Sometimes it's only words, sometimes only an emotion. Today it was an image. There were body sensations too, but I'm just gonna focus on the image here.
In the image/memory something is happening to a young girl (who I think is/was me as a child). I am confused though, b/c the image/memory is from the perspective of an outside observer...
Right now as an adult I only dissociate in mild ways, never feeling completely "outside myself." So my question is mostly to those who are more aware of feeling completely outside their own bodies... do you have any memories where you are watching a scene and you can see the entire scene, including all of your own body, like even the top of your own head (which is technically impossible... no one can actually see their own head without looking in a mirror...).
Thanks for any responses.
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no in me I did not see me being abused in my memories. nor did I see my alters being abused.
in me it was/ is a reliving of the abuse where in my dreams and memories its like its happening now, from a first person point of view. I see what I saw during the abuse... the abuser,mine shaft walls, the lanterns, .... but I do not see me, sometimes I will see parts of me as in during one abuse I raised my arm and hands towards my face and head so like a normal person would see their arm and hands raising I see my arm and hand raising. sometimes I am able to see my face in reflective things in the memory like the water puddles, the glass jar, the shiny pipes,
that said...
there is a friend of mine who was in a hurricane that was so traumatic for her that she had what is called out of body experience /an astral projection event where a person can physically cause their soul/ non material / spirit/ energy (its called by many things here where I am) to leave the physical body and stand or float / hover a bit away from their physical body. my friend was able to recount everything that was happening during her out of body experience.
I also have a relative who was clinically dead and then resuscitated was able to tell us everything that went on, what we were saying and doing in the waiting room while the doctors were working on her in the ER.
My point I know that out of body experiences do happen but it has never happened to me. when ever my own dissociation happened I always felt numb spaced out and disconnected but never to the point of the paranormal like Out of Body Experience so I will never be able to see myself in memories, I have and will always experience what happened to me like flashbacks (reliving the trauma and emotions as if they are happening today exactly how they happened then from the first person point of view not the 2nd person point of view(OBE)