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I am having so much difficulty with my sessions with T, he is so detached. I don't think I'll ever get past this. My emotions are chaotic at best. He didn't bother to read my email, I called and he didn't bother to answer that. I guess I'm too needy, he's treating me like I'm a leper. It makes me feel so worthless, like trash, so empty. I took my daughter to the movies tonight but it was sold out, and she told me that we should have gone to the earlier show. She was so angry at me. I told this to my husband and he yelled, "What do you want me to do about it? That has nothing to do with me!" I just started bawling. So, my husband turns around and walks out of the room. It hurt so much. I feel like nothing. It was so devastating. **I sliced my arm from my wrist to about half way up to my elbow.** Work is emotionally draining. How the &#@$ am I supposed to deal with the stuff I am working on with T and deal with all of this other @$%#&? And Pink, where are you? Have I also said something to upset you? I imagine with your training that you have already figured how $#@%ing worthless, useless I am. I don't know if I'm going to make it through this. I want to escape all of this. I am sooo upset! All I can do is sit here and cry. I'm such a monster