I agree with lunatic soul. You know you can't be with this person, and you know it's not going to happen. By following the person's Instagram account and other social media and pseudo stalking her, you're only reminding yourself and not allowing yourself to heal and move on. You need to cut all contacts. Stop seeking this person out, stop looking at their social media, and distract yourself with other people and other things. The feelings you have for this person will fade. It's very similar to what happens when you go through a break up and need to heal. You can't heal if the reminder of the person is in front of you all the time.

Remember too, you don't know this person all that well. What you feel is a very strong crush or infatuation. It's not like you know how this person is away from their job, with their family, or if they are a good person. I have a feeling that what you love about this person is the idea of them, not actually who they are, because you aren't even friends in real life with this person.

And, if, when all is said and done, the universe actually intends for you two to be together, then something will happen to allow that. But in the meantime, you need to take care of yourself and heal and move on.

That's just my opinion.

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