ty...hey how are you?...sorry didn't mean to be cryptic... just really hard to talk about... my middle son and his wife are having some really difficult marital problems and my grandbabies were caught in the middle of it all... my daughter in law took off with the kids... and my son was in a really bad place regarding it...the thing that triggers me the quickest is the thought that one of my kids isn't safe... i do pretty well in the crisis...but after that is when things start to get really hard for me and the urges are the strongest... i have been in crisis mode now for way too long...it was so much easier when they were little....unfortuantly i am learning that they are going to do what they are going to do... and i just need to figure out how to stay safe when it happens...lyn