I was planning to just sleep in (which seems like a real luxury right now, given my insomnia and work) and catch up on work over the holiday, instead of meeting folks.

But, current T oddly and rather unexpectedly got super concerned and expressly asked a while ago as to what I'd be doing over the holiday -- I told her nothing, really.

Then, after that session, I started wondering if I was being too much of an oddball (even by my standards) in refusing to meet people over the holiday -- since there's no cultural significance for me, I quite enjoy the quiet time and treat it as a proper vacation.

So, have ended up accepting a friend's invitation to hang out with his family (which I've done before and it's fun) but I found myself complaining about not having down time to current T and she asked me if I was feeling resentful....and ugh, I guess I am.....at her as well for bringing it up in the first place (a part of me wonders if she believes somehow that everyone, regardless of how they feel should hang out with other people just because it's the norm; and worse still, if I let her stuff influence me to the point of making decisions that I really didn't want to make; or well, if per usual, I'm over-thinking all this and I should just go and eat and drink a lot and that's it).

I'm just feeling so completely exhausted and burnt out that hanging out with a whole bunch of (even perfectly nice) people feels like it'll need way more energy than I have.

At the same time, can't really complain -- I am rather glad that I have people who put up with my crap for so long and still want me around etc.