Hi RubyRae,

I really like this thread! Very interesting topic. Thank you for posting it.

I get so many triggers while watching movies. For a time I couldn't watch any movies at all. I walked out of a few movies in the theaters. I would cry, or have intrusive memories, get angry and suicidal. I would regress... It was horrible.

PTSD has a way of shifting our perspective about the world and shattering our faith in humanity. In particular, it becomes a VERY scary and dark world... I found that most movies, books, news and media, further exacerbate this outlook on the world because the themes are typically so dark. Human nature is disturbing and I still shy away from it from time to time.

I think I watched triggering movies intentionally in order to feel sometime. Maybe when I was in my dissociation and numb states. I also knew that certain films and TV shows would anger me into doing something positive in order to pursue justice and hopefully change the world in ways that would prevent others from experiencing what I went through. There is merit to this technique, albeit, it needs to be done carefully and with utmost respect for ourselves and the pain we endure.

Thanks,
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