I'm sorry I couldn't be more helpful. I was sort of reduced to lending an ear and offering hugs.
I'm really glad to hear you'll still be around here.
I know you're probably not in the mood, but maybe it would help to just engage in some other talk. Nothing that needs to be fixed or figured out or debated. Just a pleasant conversation of some kind. I can do that. (I can tone down the silliness I exhibit in other sub-forums.)
I think you could really use a little friendly and un-stressful interaction.