Hi, Cyborg.

"Somehow they would do everything in their power to make sure my worst nightmares come true." - Are you absolutely sure that your nightmares come true because of other people?

"Sometimes i even worry that the people in chat are all my mental health people hiding out as normal people so they can spy on me." - I can't say that this is psychotic thinking, but it sure sounds like paranoid thinking.

As for the "feeling different part", each of us are individual, unique beings, just like one fingerprint is never like the next. Would be a pretty natural assumption that feeling different is not abnormal.

"Im also pretty sure people lie to me for their own agendas or more likely to gain my trust." - Are you a very giving, caring person? Sometimes we have to look out for smiling parasites; people do take advantage of kindness these days, unfortunately.

"Its hard to break someone if they dont trust you after all." - I don't understand that statement.

"So is this possibly psychosis?" - Only a specialist could answer that question. On the other hand, though, paranoia is clearly hounding you.

Hope you can get to trust your doctors and help yourself to help yourself.

Wishing you the best.