Yup, I've considered sharing a flat as that's how young people cope with rent here too (the rare few that defy tradition and culture hehe).

I don't have someone I'd trust enough to live together. I'm afraid any friend who shares living space with me would realise how awful I am (I know that stems from my issues...) especially as most of my friends are independent types (even if they live with family) while I fail basic life skills. (I have issues lol)

While I tell myself I can learn and all that jazz, I do have huge irrational fears that any friend I share with will be disgusted and repulsed by me in close quarters and realise how fail I am.

And I'm terrified I won't get along with strangers who might be even more judgmental.

Yeah, I guess I should bring up these stuff to T lol, rather than just steadily telling her "I'm planning to..."