I had an awful session today and spent a good chunk of it in tortured silence because of inner ones who were silencing me/us with a constant barrage of insults and threats. It felt so awful and isolated and disconnected from self and from t. it really was a mess.
It didn't want to listen to the audio because I thought it would make me feel even more disconnected and isolated but I remembered how often I get things from the audio that I don't hear or remember in session so I listened anyway.
I am so glad I did. Even though there was so much internal distress throughout the session I could hear that T was present and aware and connected to what was going on for me even though I had no awareness of that at the time. She was right there saying all the right things and understood the inner turmoil and the reason for it, even more so than me at the time.
I feel much calmer and less triggered now. I love having audio of my sessions!