I 'see' it in 3 levels/perspectives:

1) through my eyes as I experienced and remember it consciously (ie explicitly)

2) through my embodied perceptions, sensations and dispositions (ie implicitly)

3) and also as a disembodied floating other (3rd person dissociated - probably through an alter me).

For a long time I mainly had access to level 2 and consequently couldn't understand why I was acting certain ways (or rather my body and unconscious mind understood but my conscious brain didn't), now I have access to levels 1 and 3 I have more to work on.