The holidays for me are pretty much a sloppy day of trying to keep a buzz to stay sane. It’s 12pm and I already opened a beer. When I woke up I had to take one Ativan because I was freaking out about today. Took a norco hours later. I just need to get by and that’s all. Screw my diet and conscious today. I want a **** load of turkey and beer. I’m an animal.

For what it’s worth, after today I am forcing myself to take a break from alcohol and slow down on my Ativan. I have to do something here. This has been going on too long.

Well, I hope everyone’s holiday is good and that you have more willpower than me today!! ((Hugs))