I understand.
I lost my dad to suicide this year. While I am doing absolutely nothing to deal with his loss (i am in complete denial), I am filed with guilt.
I did not have the opportunity to be there for him.
I hope you are feeling better. If you are not, that is understandable.
I am here.

So deeply sorry for your loss.

There is no-one like a Mum
I really wish I could take this pain away from you.

KT, I hope you don't mind me saying this - I realise we don't know each other that well - but I can say for sure that she would be so proud of you.

She loved you, and would want you to be happy.