I've noticed that when I take magnesium my delusions are totally calmed down. I still hear some things, but at least the delusions are taken care of. It's just not as bad. I gave some to my sister because she is bipolar and has some problems with her stomach too.

Anyway, the only voices that I hear really are over electronics and sounds. I don't hear voices just saying things. I can't relax and watch TV or listen to my iPod without hearing something which only enhances my delusion that someone is totally messing with me. I know that it is a delusion but most of the time when I hear someone I think that someone hacked into the various electronics in the house and speaks on them.

I've never mentioned that to my doctor even though she knows I hear things; I've never put it that way before, even to myself.

I've been feeling manic for like a week though. Whenever I'm about to start and am on my period, I feel really manic. I never feel really happy though; I have a quick temper. It's horrible. I screamed at someone in the neighborhood and called her a b**** about 3 times! I don't think I've ever had a manic episode where I was really happy. I take risks and am angry. I feel a lot of shame for it.