PS - don't worry about the idea that you feel you become abusive. I do it too - but I think its a self defense mechanism that kicks in n honestly .. if anybody ever said anything to me about it, I would look at them and say "ok, tell ya what - you spend 2 weeks with him talking to you the way he does me ... we will see how you feel then, only remember - I been doing this for years. If you don't think you can handle it - back off." Cuz really it seems like the only time ppl want to get involved (here anyway) is if they can create drama .. n I am on "drama overload" atm, lol.

So - just know its a human reaction n if ppl have a problem with it ... Lol, well ... You know what my advice is