I was thinking mass hypnosis or something myself. My T was distant, very. Seems everyones or just about everyone's was. He called me yesterday to check in, and we talked about the last session, he said he cannot help me if I hurt myself, and that he is not abandoning me, but he feels that when I slip into the abandonment issues that is when I hurt myself and instead of taking it out on the person that is hurting you, you abuse yourself. If I overdose, he cannot help me anymore, he wants me to get better and believes 100% that I can, he asked me to please talk to him next time, the rejection issue's and abandonment are out full force, and not to push it onto him, it is not true he cares and believes in me and isn't going anywhere. So I tried to think what was said in our last session that made me feel this way, other then his disconnection towards me, so I came up with that has to be it, he triggered my reaction with abandonment because I felt so disconnected from him, he agreed that could of been it, but it isn't the case.

I still think they all went on some joint adventure somewhere, mine went skiing, but not so sure now.....ha.....