MY T takes every sch holiday off, so its not just about the xmas or NY break. I told her once when it was one of our 1 week breaks that that was almost worse and couldnt understand why. T said because you don't get time to grief with just a week an stay "connected" to the process still and are caught in a kinda of limbo. yes each time I return to T after any break I feel T is not there the same way, that her caring has lessoned, but maybe its just these were the feelings I had split of during the actual abstence and can only allow myself to experience on a kinda of delayed reaction on the return of T, so its like the disconnection is catching up with me during the first couple of sessions back?