I think current T ‘gets it’ and there have been occasions where she has helped me develop insight about some of my issues..genuine ‘aha’ moments. I believe she thinks about me, occasionally, out of session..but not more often than that...and that feels real to me.

I feel the entire therapy room/therapist set up (with her in it) is helpful. I like the ‘safety of her presence.’ It’s not quite the same feeling with her on the phone.

I don’t feel ‘held’ by her. I’m not sure what that would feel like.

In my experience, I feel PrevT understood/understands me more. I felt PrevT thoroughly ‘got it.’ I had just had a huge trauma having been exploited by a previous therapist...and she understood what I might be feeling even before I recognized or understood it. There were many more insightful, revealing moments.

I felt she was absolutely in the room and was zoned in on me. I have seen PrevT be distracted by something right before our session...fumbling with the wrong key to open a door...something minor...and when it was time to sit down with me I actually noticed her do some kind of subtle maneuver where she centered herself and her attention was concentrated on me. She was atuned to me the entire hour every session.

Current T doesn’t do this as well.

The only moments where I might have felt ‘held’ by PrevT were created by me...in my mind...but she created the atmosphere where this was/is possible.