Thanks for your concern, guys.
It was one of those days that kept getting worse and worse! My daughter was just disappointed, I know. My husband always walks away from me when I am crying, it's like it makes him angry. He'll see me upset and say something like, "unbelievable." He has a fear of any kind of intimacy which doesn't help when all you want is someone to give you a hug and to hold you. My daughter actually saw me crying later, came up to me, gave me a really tight hug and told me she loved me. (I do this with her when she is upset). I love her so much! What a wonderful daughter I have

I do plan on telling all of this to T. I am not feeling really close to him now and this bothers me. He is definitely only someone I hired. This hurts majorly. I want him to care for me more than that but know it will never happen. This is another this that makes me feel worthless. Ugh. I guess I'll trudge through somehow. Thanks for the wonderful replies. I love you guys -- you are the only ones that I can speak to who truly understand. My husband doesn't, or won't listen. My friends try to understand, but don't. I'm glad all of you are here.