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Originally Posted by Rose76
Getting mad at him last night didn't help me at all. I feel worse. He's been content to sleep in his recliner a great part of the time. That makes it lonely for me. But I've slept a lot too.
I'm depressed. I don't even know that getting away from him would make me one bit better. I might just feel worse.
I don't know what to do. I can't see a future to look forward to. This is awful.
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Ok - I am going to get real in a "harsh way" but not a "mean way". It's meant to cause you to think in a different direction, nothing else. ❤
First I will buffer by saying this - I understand the pain of not being able to see past where you are right now. But that's exactly why you cannot - you are in too much pain.
You said you don't know if getting away from him would make it better. Who knows - maybe it will, maybe it won't. But I can tell you 4 things for sure.
1. You do not deserve the treatment you are receiving.
2. The treatment of you will not get better. (His illness won't allow for that even if he would but I don't think he would either)
3. He will only get worse health wise
4. The likelihood he will die before you is very high.
Given those things - starting to break your attachment to him now by at least allowing yourself time in your own home away from him completely is much healthier. Of course you are free to do whatever you want - but I know what it is to have a strong attachment suddenly severed .. if it could have been done gently, perhaps the trauma would not be as bad.
Just a thought.