I’m sorry......it was a bad moment. I will be stronger. I just need help. My doctors are helping just not in the ways I think they should but I don’t make good decisions right now so I’m probably wrong on what I need. I’m not drinking and that is huge. I just need to not drink or other things I’m tempted to do that will harm more than help. I don’t want to hurt my family with my dysfunction. I’m being quiet about all this. They have enough of their own problems. I just needed help. I will be ok. I need to focus on the future and not the past.