I wasn t as scared earlier but I am now. The demons are still here in me and I feel like I need to cut to make them bleed away.

I realize how crazy that sounds but it feels right. I haven't self harmed in almost a year so I'm telling myself no but I feel like I need to cut to make t go away and feel better. I keep telling myself no it nots real and don't do it but my mind fights back with its real and you need to.

I see my psyd Tuesday and this has been happening for almost a week
and I'm just so scared. People keep asking if I need ip and I really can't go. I just started a new job I love and don't wanna lose! I can't let them
Know im struggling. I just have to
Fight the demons inside.

I'm so scared still