when i was accused of flirting (which i wasnt) it only drove a wedge... to me, jealousy is baggage... i know im not like most guys, so i know the reality you girls have to deal with and, im not jealous...

i tried (because i was in therapy), to live by principles i learned there... one being the self is responsible to the self...

i didnt appreciate being dragged into something i wasnt responsible for...

when i attempted to explain my reasonings, i was met with 'thats wrong' ...

here i had a trained professional telling me what was 'right' and when i tried to enact that, i met resistance...

personally, i think the women just wanted what they wanted and didnt care if it was healthy or not...

i know not all women are this way...

even the 'little' expressions of jealousy turned into 'big' disagreements...

so, i felt that healing myself was detrimental because even though i heard about all this enlightenment, when out in general public, i faced old ways of thinking that are spread and encouraged by our society...

it almost made me wish i hadnt been told of more healthy ways of living... what is the point if its all some ideal i couldnt find 'out there' in my community?