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Old Nov 25, 2017, 01:26 AM
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Some MI are actually situational. In my case the major depression recurrent & major anxiety I was dx'ed with started with a situation that caused me to have a break down, suicide attempts, anorexia. I was a total mess. I went from being a professional computer design engineer to not being able to function when I was 42. The aerospace industry where I lived crashed & I couldnt find anither position. I think burn out hit at the same time along with ending up in a department I hated dealing with policies & procedures. After a year of being at home, that was when thebdepression & suicide attempts hit.

It wasnt until I left my bad marriage 13 years later that I realized that major depression came from being trapped in it financially with no way out.

That escape to freedom showed up other issues that I had been living with that were feeding my depression. One of those things was realizing that the H that was creatjng so much trouble in my life actually was not just dealing with hid dxed adult ADD but also ASD & I had grown up with avdad whose behaviors also pointed to him having veen on the spectrum.

Learning how to react to normal people in the outside of eork environment was a challenge but it totally replaced the depression & anxiety.

I am much ilder now & at retirement age anyway now. The strange thing, being away from that stressful environment I have my concentration & memory back & I canvfunctikn more like my old self finally at tgevage of almost 65 . But I am in a totalky different place now. Out on a 10 acre farm in Ky instead of Los Angeles & life is peaceful for the first time.

Yes, my MI was real in spite of it being situational & that & a final blow that caused PTSD right before I left were the things that actually brought me to this peaceful place in life where I could heal. Its nice to feel better than my previous normal self felt because I am no longer in that environment that caused me so much depression....so yes, I like being rid of it & being the new person I am capable of becomming.
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