Wow, that is just, wow, what you've been through is horrifying, what those people did to you was monstrous and should never be acceptable, but at the same time, you should move on cause that was all in the past, and if you are suffering from some sort of depression, anxiety, or PTSD as a result of this, find a hobby, like walking in the park, jogging, reading books, watching TV, clubs, social groups, sports, etc., so that you can cope with what happened to you in your childhood, or you can always talk to a therapist, or a friend that you trust, I'm sorry that you had to go through this