Mandy this is exactly what I am going through. I have often felt as if my T has tested me like that.

For example, I know he sees people sometimes twice in one day or twice a week. I've heard the scheduling when I'm waiting for an appointment.

I try to remember that I have no idea what his patients are going through and will never know why he does that for them and not me. I feel I need a safer environment with him and plan to talk to him about this wednesday.

My point is you'll never know if she did that as a therapy intervention or if she was really unable to make it. So, the only choice to go with is the positive one. Talk to her about it and tell her how it made you feel.

If you ask her if she did that as an intervention, she won't tell you or I doubt she will confirm that. This is the hardest part of therapy for me, the ambiguity, the pouring out of my heart one session and having him detached the next session or business-like.

It all just hurts so much and sometimes it is unbearable to continue somehow I do that though...I ramble on. You will too!