Almeda,

I'm hoping that at your next sessin with T that you can clear things up. Can you ask him why he felt frustrated at the results? Ask your T to tell you specifically what his boundaries are.
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I'm so sad because I feel like something inside me has died...I'm looking at my T in a whole new light. The fantasy in my head about being his friend is just that, a fantasy

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I know, Almeda. I'm going through the same thing now -- my fantasy about T being a friend has been shattered. It is one of the worst feelings in the world! My T told me that I have to now mourn this loss. You're not alone here, my friend.

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If I respect and care for him as I say I do then I need to respect his boundaries

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Yes, but that doesn't mean it will be easy. You may still cross a boundary because you don't know what else to do, and that's okay. It's okay to make mistakes. Tell your T which boundaries you are probably going do have difficulty with (like calling him between sessions or whatever). Ask him what else you can do instead of this to relieve your anxiety.

It sounds like you are afraid that your T is going to give you the boot. ((((((((Almeda)))))))) Tell him that fear!

I hope your next session allays your fears. Take care.