Being in my own house and room makes me have flashbacks and just causes me anxiety in general. I'm better when I spend time alone outside so I spend a lot of time in cafes. So today I basically spent like 5 hours at the cafe in front of my house. I'm finding it hard to explain my situation exactly but on 'bad' days every time I interact with my family at all it just leaves me a mess, like it emotionally drains me. Even when they don't say anything much, just their attitude towards me or their tone, it just makes me break down. Today I was trying to work on an assignment in the cafe and then my mom called about something along the lines that i couldn't take a day off from school (another story but it wasn't anything that serious). Halfway during the call I just couldn't take her voice anymore and just hung up. It left me in tears and I had to take a long time to calm myself down before I could continue my work. This repeated several times, every time my mom called me about that thing I just broke down and had to distract myself before I could work again.
I think the only solution to this is to leave my house and family when i get older but I still have to endure years and years of this.
Also I didn't know where to categorize this so yeah