Went to a friendsgiving and I was in an awful mood. I was pretty quiet and left early saying I wasn't feeling well (which was true, I just didn't specify that it was mental). I was mostly having a hard time because I quit drinking 3.5 months ago and this was my first holiday without the booze.

I need a better strategy for Xmas. I have no plans a this point which is dangerous. Last year consisted of drinking a bottle of whiskey in the passenger seat on the way home from a depressing day trip. My mom passed 3 years ago so the holiday's have been difficult and without structure since then.