Hello (((LENNIE))). I am sorry that you are struggling at this time with all of this that you are going through. I am in chat usually at 2 PM monday through Friday, if you would like to chat with others that may be able to help direct you to getting the proper help you need in the future. I am in the United States but I am willing to help you if I can with some of the issues you may be having and maybe in devising a crisis plan to help you when you are in crisis, since you dont seem to be getting the help you deserve when you need it the most. Take care Lennie. I have a seminar tomorrow (monday) but I wil be in chat at 2 PM Tuesday if you are available to chat then. Soidhonia